In the Foreground #sol20
February 25, 2020
My husband and I went on vacation last week. Recently, when we vacation, we discuss the location with the lens of retirement. Could we live here? What would we do? Is it walkable? All the questions that we think we might want to know.
I’m not sure when we started playing this game. Perhaps when we moved to Massachusetts and knew without a doubt that it wouldn’t be our permanent home. What would be? So, we casually discuss our retirement lives.
Our retirement lives… Mr. K leans toward warmth and proximity to the ocean. It sounds appealing, endless sunshine and heat. Long walks. A nearby library. Our ‘retirement’ jobs? Mr. K- mixing paint at Home Depot . Mine- reading tutor
We mostly consider all these things fleetingly, in random conversation, in vacation planning. We think about it after bad snows and hard commutes, tough weeks. We think about it because it’s nice to have something to look forward to together.
People ask me occasionally about retirement now. I never feel like they mean, when are you going to retire already? I usually say, not soon… and mean it.
I’m not sure how I will know when it’s time to retire. Will I just walk out one June day and say, I think that’s all for now. Many of my former colleagues are retired. They fill their days with grandchildren, part-time jobs, books, and hikes.
For today, I’ll continue to think about it in the abstract. Consciously not turning my hair to its now natural white. Continuing to show up early and stay late. Read professional books and listen to professional podcast. Learn and do and try and strive on… for now.
Last night I told a friend, I’m trying to buy less children’s books. I mean, what will I do with them when I retire?
She said, retire? when will that be? I never see myself retiring.
When she said that I thought, I don’t really see myself retiring either.
I suppose that’s when I’ll know it’s the right time, when I can see myself retiring. I’ll let you know.
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